Yesterday was Dr. day! I went to my new obgyn. I was so super nervous for several reasons, but mostly scared i was going to get some horrible terrible news. After what seemed like a long conversation with the doctor he finally gives me a answer, a label. Hello my name is Stephanie and I have PCOS. Poly cystic ovarian syndrome. Basically it means that my hormones are out of balance, making me not have a period, and if you don't have a period you cant make eggs and can't make a baby! Also as a result of the hormone changes are many tiny cysts begin to grow on the ovaries (hence the name). So now I begin treatment, first and foremost because of long term effects of pcos I have to get my weight down to lessen the more serious effects (diabetes and heart disease) and also make me a healthier person, I have now started taking a medicine called metformin to help regulate my hormones which should help my periods begin being regular again. The doctor said then after regular periods will I be able to tell whether or not I can get pregnant. He said that as long as you produce eggs you should be able to get, but if I do not get pg after 6 months then that means that there is something else going on like endometriosis. So I have to say that I am glad to know what I am fighting. It's nice to have a name/face to my problem. I go back in 3 weeks to see if the meds are affecting my hormones and what not. I now feel a little more like a woman again. I must admit that thru all of this I have really stopped feeling like a woman, I stopped feeling sexy, undesirable. Why would a man want me, I am broken, defective and hideous. To me a woman was made to have children, (this is my personal feelings right now) and if I can't do that, then I can not consider myself a whole woman. It doesn't help that many of the symptoms of PCOS are gross, like abnormal hair growth on the face and body, acne and weight gain, Sometimes i feel more like a teenage boy going thru puberty than a 25 year old woman. Hopefully now the meds that I am taking will reverse most of these symptoms and make me feel even more like a woman again. Beautiful and desirable!
*if anyone has any desire to read more about PCOS click here* http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/polycystic-ovary-syndrome
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